An actual BLOG

So here I go again
about 30 minutes later.
I can't sleep at the moment.
I have all these thoughts
and feelings inside of me
that I want to let out,
but for some reason,
I'm having a hard time
expressing how I feel.
Even just typing it out.

I guess the best way to
describe how I feel right now:

I JUST WANT TO FUCKING SCREAM MY BRAINS OUT.

I feel so irritated for no reason
what so ever.

I guess what was kind of a joyykill
tonight, was the fact that the HOMIE
was drunk and had to mention about
the past.

PAST: "I wish you guys were still together.
That's my nigga,
You're a dope ass chick,
Man you guys were so GREAT together."

After a long night being at work
getting home at 3a
the last thing I wanted to hear
was "THAT."

Sometimes its hard to adjust when YOU
know certain things have been
left UNSAID between two people.
Especially when you can feel
the tension between eachother.
Sometimes its hard when you know
that SPARKS are still sparking
when you see eachother
but at the same time, you just want to
breakaway from them
because ITS NOT WORTH THE TIME.
Sometimes its hard to face the truth.
Sometimes its hard to deal with the TRUTH.

But I guess in the end,
when two people can't realize
there mistakes,
ITS DEAD AND GONE.

Time to face reality.
People change.
Settings change.

its just one of those end of the nights
feeling lonely and wondering
all the why and what ifs.
hate to love it.
what can you do?
EMOTIONS.

you can only hurt SO MUCH.
you can only put yourself through SO MUCH.
you can only MAKE THINGS WORTH WHILE.
its a LOVE SPELL.
it only lasts FOR SO LONG,
SNAP THE FUCK OUT OF IT.

SPU_BEEZY.